We all start out, normal. We are happy. We are fine. No worries in the world. Nothing could hurt us. We have someone by our side. We have put our trust, faith, our everything into them. We have exposed how fragile, and messed up we are. They give up, or they hurt you. You start to fade. You hurt. You get angry. Your rage and pain is being out together, creating a flame, no water can put out. But after awhile… Even that starts to fade. You try to cover it up. You act happy, but they all know. They know you ate that, they know you cut, they know you didn’t eat last week, or the month before that. They always know. They know how alone you are. Your rage comes back. It’s back because you don’t … You don’t know what to feel. All you have is this rage… So … You get angry, mad, and you get pissed off at every little thing. Because… That’s all you remember. That’s all you remember to do. You lose friends, your family doesn’t know what is going on with you…… But then. Something new happens. You find a new flame. A new reason. A new person, just as broken as you, maybe even worse. Your wall is down, you have so many cracks, holes, cuts, bruises, blemishes. It’s what makes you unique though. “No on else, has what I have.” It’s something you could say. Sure, some people see everything as a bad thing. I see it as a memory that they won’t have. Something to be proud of, because you are here. You’ve made it, and pushed through all of that shit. They helped you pick yourself up, and place you back up, brick by brick, they pieced you back together. You don’t know it now, but you’ve made it through, and HELPED someone else through all of that stupid shit, with their shit, too. They see all your emotions. They see all your blemishes, and flaws…. But they count them as, and see them as, beauty. They love everything about you… Because you’ve made it. You have re-created yourself, into something better, not a duplicate, but a re-creation. It’s even better. A new start, clean slate. A new you… And you are truly beautiful.
-Kathryn B. Griffith November, 24, 2013